I have the attention span of a sparrow. There’s always creative juices flowing within and I’m always coming up with fun ideas to do. I’ve always been like this since I was a child. I’m smart, there’s no doubt about it and I have three educational degrees & various certificates to prove that. The downside of this is that it’s hard for me to follow through with what I’ve started…
It doesn’t help either that I’ve had two concussions within the past 3 years, the most recent one being in January of this year. The one I had in January 2019 happened outside the parking lot of a hotel. I slipped and fell on ice and hit the back of my head on the rock-hard ice! I dissociated and what I recall happened does not make sense as to what I think really happened anatomically. There’s no way for me to know for sure since no one was there to witness it when it happened.
At least my head hit the carpet for the one that just happened two months ago. My soon-to-be ex-husband was helping me apply the bandage dressing to my lipoma surgical wound (I had the lipoma removal surgery done towards the end of December 2021) and he said that I started to walk towards the door to leave before he could apply the surgical tape onto the bandage dressing. He said that after my head hit the carpet, I started to vomit and thank goodness he quickly turned my head to the side. Otherwise, I may have just choked on my own vomit and died of suffocation. Once again, what I thought happened was completely different from what he said happened to me, including the direction I fell and even the location that I fell backwards.
I went to a clinic specializing in people who have had concussions and did a series of tests for the past two months. I finally had my call with the physician this week to tell me about my test results and the treatment plan.
My main issues, besides having headaches and neck pain, is that I have balance issues and eye-brain coordination incongruency. This is why I can not read for long, I start to get really tired and have headaches not long after I start to read. I also can not focus for long, whereas in the past, if I’m really focused on doing something, I can go for hours non-stop.
Ever since my first concussion back in 2019, I have felt that I just can not function properly, nowhere near where I was before. The physician said it seems like I had already suffered from chronic post-concussion symptoms since my first fall 3 years ago, and the one I just had 2 months ago are now making things a lot worse for me.
I’ll be going for physical therapy for balance issues, and occupational therapy mainly to help my eye and brain to communicate properly again. The physician suggested that I go for PT and OT once a week but knowing how I get overwhelmed so easily, I plan on alternating them instead.
I’m doing a lot of work regarding my mind, body and spirit and I have been committing myself to learn a bit about stock trading each and every day. That’s my long term goal; to manage my investment portfolios wisely.
Bit by bit, and day by day, I will get there! π
Seabird
~ Billy Alessi, Bobby Alessi
There’s a road I know I must go
Even though I tell myself that road is closed
Listen lonely seabird
You’ve been away from land too long
Oh far too long
I don’t listen to the news no more
Like an unwound clock
You just don’t seem to care
This world isn’t big enough
To keep me away from you
Ah, far from you
Tell the seabird
Seabird, Seabird, fly home
Seabird, Seabird, fly home
Like a lonely seabird
You’ve been away from land too long
Oh far too long
Suddenly you’re with me
I turn and you’re gone
Like a ghost, you haunt me
You find warmth in a 1-night bed
Tell the seabird
Seabird, Seabird fly home
Seabird, Seabird fly home
Seabird, Seabird fly home
Seabird, Seabird fly home