My Microsoft Onedrive emails a collection of photos “On this day.” Today’s email shows photos from the morning after my ex proposed to me on 04/18/08. He took me to a fancy restaurant in downtown LA, and booked the iconic Beverly Hilton hotel, where many famous people have stayed in the past.
My ex told the staff in advance that he was proposing to me that night, and the staff kindly upgraded us to the Presidential Suite, which had been remodeled a few years ago and looked a lot different then. They also prepared champagne and chocolate-dipped strawberries for us. He went down on one knee and proposed to me. It was like a fairy tale come true.
Our divorce dragged on for 2.5 years. Yet, the judge signed the papers in less than a day. The court officially entered it in the records the next day, on my birthday.
It had to be done, but I’m still in shock. I still reminisce. I still mourn.
Every night, I’m dancing with your ghost…
Dancing With Your Ghost
~ Sasha Alex Sloan
Yelling at the sky
Screaming at the world
Baby, why’d you go away?
I’m still your girl
Holding on too tight
Head up in the clouds
Heaven only knows where you are now
How do I love, how do I love again?
How do I trust, how do I trust again?
I stay up all night, tell myself I’m alright
Baby, you’re just harder to see than most
I put the record on, wait ’til I hear our song
Every night, I’m dancing with your ghost
Every night, I’m dancing with your ghost
Never got the chance
To say a last goodbye
I gotta move on
But it hurts to try
How do I love, how do I love again?
How do I trust, how do I trust again?
I stay up all night, tell myself I’m alright
Baby, you’re just harder to see than most
I put the record on, wait ’til I hear our song
Every night, I’m dancing with your ghost
Every night, I’m dancing with your ghost
How do I love, how do I love again?
How do I trust, how do I trust again?
I stay up all night, tell myself I’m alright
Baby, you’re just harder to see than most
I put the record on, wait ’til I hear our song
Every night, I’m dancing with your ghost
Every night, I’m dancing with your ghost
Every night, I’m dancing with your ghost