๐บ I AM Becoming Healthier and Happier Each and Every Day! ๐
Affirmations for the Week:
๐บ I accept that Happiness is my true nature!
๐บ I create the life that I desire with my good feelings!
๐บ Everything is always working out well for me!
Sunday (09/05/21):
๐ฐ Today is my Dearest Daddy’s Birthday!
๐ฐ I called my parents to wish him Happy Birthday! He received our birthday card a few days ago and was very happy to hear my voice! ๐
๐ฐ I also spoke with mom regarding my sister. It helps both my mom and myself when we talk about my sister; to resolve the torment and conflict within ourselves.
๐ฐ Happy Birthday My Dearest Daddy! I Love You So Much! ๐ฅฐ
Monday (09/06/21):
๐ Sorting out more issues in South Africa now…
๐ I’m glad that I’ve developed a mindset of accepting that there is a possibility of issues arising from Dad’s stuff in South Africa on a consistent basis.
๐ So now, I’m able to just treat it as an “issue” that needs to be taken care of, instead of the “Oh My Gosh! The Sky is Falling again!” mentality.
๐ I’m glad I stopped working the bilingual customer service job because that required me to stay up late, and then I don’t sleep well, and/or wake up late.
๐ Now, I’m slowly getting my sleep back on track, and am able to feel more alert when I wake up in the morning.
๐ South Africa is 7 hours ahead of Minnesota, so I’m able to still get some email correspondences done in real time when I’m up in the morning and in front of my computer.
๐ I don’t know when I’ll be able to take the full recommended dosages for the supplements that Dr. P has prescribed for me. I’m supposed to be taking up to 5000mg of Vitamin C, and up to 5000mg of fish oil per day. Are you kidding me???
๐ It’s been over 2 weeks since I last saw him, and I’m still stuck on taking 1000mg of each per day.
๐ I’m also supposed to be drinking 2 tablespoons of olive oil per day. Good thing that I’ve now substituted salad dressing with organic extra virgin olive oil, apple cider vinegar and lime/lemon juice instead.
Tuesday (09/07/21):
๐ My hubby is really funny! I place all of his online orders for him ~ personal and work-related, on Amazon. Whenever he wants to buy something for himself, sometimes, just to save me from asking why he wants to buy it, he’ll just ask me in his email to charge it to his company’s account (for tax deduction purposes).
๐ I think he knows very well that I always take the “rather safe than sorry” approach, so will just order it for him, but not include it as business-related expenses.
๐ My personality is such that I don’t guesstimate. I’ll calculate his daily mileages exactly to the T, which is so time consuming and boring. That’s actually one the biggest pains in my life ~ to calculate his daily mileages. I need to figure out what can be included as his business-related mileages, and what can not. Why can’t he just stay put? ๐ค
๐ It’s just really funny of the things that he wants me to order for him, and “to charge to his company’s account”, knowing very well that I will not! ๐คช
Wednesday (09/08/21):
๐ฎ I had my first Tarot Masterclass yesterday afternoon. ๐
๐ฎ The Tarot is one of the most powerful life coaching tools.
๐ฎ Going through the video replay again now. I’m excited to learn how to do my own Tarot readings soon, and hopefully, can do reading for clients as well.
๐ I had a DBT individual session yesterday afternoon and we spoke about my sister. I felt so tired afterwards. It’s helpful though…
Thursday (09/09/21):
๐ Today is my Dearest Mommy’s Birthday! ๐ Gonna call her a bit later on to see how everyone’s doing, and to wish her Happy Birthday! ๐
๐ Happy Birthday My Dearest Mommy! I Love You So So Much!!! ๐ฅฐ
๐งโโ๏ธ I told my PT quite a while back that I’m wearing a posture corrector to help keep a good posture and asked him if that was a good idea?
๐งโโ๏ธHe said in the short term. However, he doesn’t recommend it in the long run; as people tend to use it as a crutch, and the body stops maintaining good posture on its own without it after a while.
๐งโโ๏ธ I wear it every morning for at least an hour when I’m in front of my computer. However, I just noticed now that even with my posture corrector on, I’m still slouching slightly! ๐ฒ
๐งโโ๏ธ I guess my body has gotten so used to it now, and is just treating it as a decoration, instead of a reminder to maintain a good posture.
๐งโโ๏ธ I’m going to pay extra attention now to my posture for at least the next week, and not rely on my posture corrector to do so. I want to particularly be aware of what kind of bad posture my body has gotten used to.
โ๏ธ My ears should line up over my shoulder, which lines up over the hip. When I stand, those points should align over the ankle.
๐ท I called mom just now to wish her Happy Birthday and we were talking about my sister again. She’s writing a letter to my sister’s psychiatrist and was reading the letter to me over the phone.
๐ท I gave my mom some suggestions and she agreed with what I thought.
๐ท I kind of lost my patience with my mom for a while, and I feel bad about it, especially since it’s her birthday today. ๐ฅ However, my mom is the complete opposite to my husband when it comes to answering questions.
๐ท My husband will give a one sentence answer with no explanation whatsoever. My mom, on the other hand, will start explaining a whole lot, and at the end, I’m still confused as to what the answer is? ๐
๐ท I got so frustrated eventually because I kept on asking my mom some simple Yes/No questions, but she just kept on giving a whole lot of explanations without giving me a final Yes or No answer.
๐ท A simple example, would be like for instance:
Me: Mom, have you eaten breakfast yet?
Mom: I didn’t sleep well last night. I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn’t fall back asleep again for hours. I was awake thinking about your sister all that time. Your father got up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom, and he was able to fall back asleep right afterwards, blah, blah, blah…..
Me, thinking in my head: So mom, did you eat your breakfast yet, or not?????
And lately, I’ve noticed, she does that almost every time I ask her a question. It’s kind of driving my crazy….
๐ท I apologized to my mom for losing my patience but I asked her in the future to please first answer Yes, or No, to my question, and then give her lengthy explanation afterwards.
Friday (09/10/21):
๐ธ Fifth (Throat) Chakra ~ Creative Expression
๐ธ I am committed to sharing and revealing my thoughts and feelings by being creative in my communication style and using expressive language.
๐ธ I express myself through talking, singing, sighing, laughing and crying and through my creative talents.
๐ธ I consciously use my senses to experience my world more fully.
๐ธ I see, hear, smell and feel more, and I become more aware of my surroundings, such as the weather, aromas, people, nature, sounds and sights.
Saturday (09/11/21):
๐๏ธ I spoke with Mom just now. She wrote another letter to my sister’s psychiatrist, and wanted to know what I think. I told Mom that she wrote it very well, as it came from her heart. But I did remind my mom not to write any more letters, because these doctors are really busy, having to see hundreds of patients a day in the institution.
๐๏ธ I got annoyed with Mom once again. We were ending the call on a very nice note. However, mom had to bring up my husband again. My parents have this very traditional, incorrect point of view towards marriage ~ that the woman has to do all the work, especially when it comes to maintaining the connection within the marriage. I told my mom once again, that relationships are a two-way street. Both people have to want to make it work, in order for it to work.
๐๏ธI have found throughout the years that relationships, unfortunately, is the one thing that you have to rely on the other person, in order to make it work. You can study hard, get good grades, and have an excellent career. However, even if you work very hard on your relationship, it still doesn’t always guarantee the results you want. Both people must want to make it work, in order for it to work.
๐๏ธ I asked Mom to please take care of herself, take care of my sister, and take care of Dad, and let me handle my relationship problems on my own. As no one else will be able help me with my relationship problems, except for my husband and myself. Sometimes, too many opinions from outsiders that know nothing about what happens behind closed doors, will end up causing even more damage to the relationship.
๐๏ธ I did try to be patient with mom this time. However, I’m still feeling slightly annoyed as it’s triggering a lot of unresolved issues between my husband and myself.
๐๏ธ I tell myself that she’s doing this out of love. It may not be the correct way to do it, and it may not be in her place to be interfering in my marriage, but her intentions are sincere, and that’s enough for me to let it go…
๐๏ธ Today is the 20th anniversary of 9/11. I pray that all the innocent souls whose lives were taken away, and the lives that were affected even up to this day, to be able to find some peace, forgiveness, and resolution to this tragic day…