It was all just a game to you. It was all just a dream. I’m awake now.
Day: September 3, 2021
π Thoughts for the Week (08/29/21 – 09/04/21) π»
- Theme for the Week:
- πΊ Radical Acceptance ~ Accepting Reality for What Is!
- Affirmations for the Week:
- πΊ I accept that manho lied to, manipulated, and used me.
- πΊ I let go of what he has done to me, and trust that the Universe will bring Justice to this situation!
- πΊ “Radical” means all the way, complete and total.
- πΊ It is accepting in your mind, your heart, and your body.
- πΊ It’s when you stop fighting reality, stop throwing tantrums because reality is not the way you want it, and let go of bitterness.
- πΊ Resentment is like swallowing poison and waiting for the other person to die.
- πΊ My best revenge is to live my best life ~ filled with health, wealth, love, joy and happiness!
- Sunday (08/29/21):
- π I’m going with my friend to the Minnesota State Fair next week.
- π I’ve been on a gluten-free, dairy-free, soy-free, egg-free, and “whatever else free that you can think of” diet for my health; to the point where I’m starting to wonder what the point is of eating? I’m getting so bored with “eating” these days.
- π I have decided to take my allergy meds, bring my lactase (the enzyme to digest dairy products) tablets, and make sure that I have my EpiPen (in case of severe allergies leading to anaphylactic shock) on me that day, for I am going to eat everything under the sun! π
- π I am well aware of the possible consequences of my actions; i.e. I may become sick and suffer from pain for the next few days afterwards, and I am willing to accept the consequences.
- π I will enjoy everything I eat on that day, get sick and feel pain (hopefully not though, fingers crossed…) for the next few days, and go back to my gluten-free, dairy-free, soy-free, egg-free and “whatever else free that you can think of” healthy diet the very next day.
- π I can hardly wait! π
- Monday (08/30/21):
- π₯ I have a headache, having issues with dad’s stuff in South Africa again. Once again, I don’t want to open my emails. π’
- π₯ I just had a realization now, that this is not going to end. It’s like the wildfires every year in summer. If there’s trees and grasses, then you can expect to have a wildfire.
- π₯ I’m really glad that I’ve started to learn DBT now. It’s a skill set I wish I had since a long time ago.
- π₯ If I allow these issues to affect me every single time something happens, then I’ll get affected all the time.
- π₯ I really can’t do anything about things that just happen. I need to accept them as what is, and just work through the issues one day at a time…
- π€ I just noticed this afternoon that the colleague that manho is sleeping with has gone huge! I wonder if she’s just gotten fat, or if she’s actually pregnant now???
- π€ And she’s always coughing, I wonder if she has Covid? π€
- Tuesday (08/31/21):
- π Second (Sacral) Chakra ~ I AM a Mentor, Not a Rescuer
- π I avoid continually sacrificing my own happiness for others by rescuing and enabling them, as doing this may hinder personal growth for both of us.
- π I do not assume that everyone wants my opinions and solutions to their life challenges, and if I am in doubt, I will ask them!
- π I take responsibility for my own happiness!
- Wednesday (09/01/21):
- π΄ Third (Solar Plexus) Chakra ~ Inner Harmony
- π΄ I trust my innate wisdom and respond accordingly.
- π΄ I am at peace with myself and those around me and I do not harbor unrealistic expectations of myself or of others. I release the need to control others.
- π΄ The foundation of all my thoughts and actions is trust in myself.
- Thursday (09/02/21):
- β€οΈ Fourth (Heart) Chakra ~ Generosity
- β€οΈ Speaking from the heart will let those around me know how I feel about them. My generosity will touch another person’s heart and replenish their spirit.
- β€οΈ Through love, I have a positive, spontaneous and lasting influence on the healing and transformation of both myself and others.
- Friday (09/03/21):
- π» Yesterday was my dearest sister’s birthday. Mom said that she’s not doing too well.
- π» Mom and I had a long, heart-felt conversation. We also recited the “Serenity Prayer” together for a few times over the phone.
- π» Happy Birthday My Dearest Pooky Baby! I pray that you get better and better each and every day! I love you so much!!! πππ
- Saturday (09/04/21):
- π I had a nap yesterday afternoon and woke up with a sprain on the right side of my neck.
- π I slept relatively well last night, but ended up sleeping on my left side, and after I woke up, I ended up with pain on the left side of my neck and my left scapula.
- π What is going on with me? It seems like I have an imbalance on the left and right sides of my body?