Month: February 2021

I dreamt of my sister last night. I don’t recall ever having her in my dreams. It was just an ordinary dream. We were in Taiwan, doing some shopping. But somehow, that dream woke me up. As soon as I woke up, I started missing her so much, and I felt this physical deep ache in my heart. It wasn’t pain in my chest, it was pain in my actual heart…

My sister and I have been soulmates and best friends since childhood. We grew especially close when we were both in high school, in South Africa. We each had our own bedrooms with the exact same setup – desk, chair and bed. We were so close that we decided to move both of our desks into one room, and our beds in another. This way, we can study together during the day, and fall asleep together at night.

We hardly ever fought. I think there was only one time when we had something close to being a physical altercation, in high school. Mom was getting ready for a banquet at our house that evening and my sister and I were helping out. I don’t remember what we were fighting about, but it got heated and my sister and I both reached out our arms to grab each other. We’re about the same physical strength, so none of us moved an inch. After about 5 seconds, we looked at each other and burst out laughing! We then started chatting and helping out again, as if nothing ever happened. That’s how fast we’re able to let go of our arguments.

We made a pact that whenever we get into an argument, it doesn’t matter whose fault it was, or whose fault we think it was, we will take turns in making the first move to make up. We kept to our word and always made up really quickly.

My sister told me that I was a little bully when I was small, because I am the baby in the family, so I always got things my way (by crying). When I was a toddler, I had my own adult-sized chair, and if anyone sat it, I would just start crying until they got off my chair. My sister said that she didn’t like me that much back then. However, as the years went by, she started realizing how kind and loving I am, so she made an effort to connect with me, and to accommodate my shortcomings.

I was really touched when she told me that. I always thought that we were just naturally close to each other. I didn’t know that she consciously made an effort to be close to me. After learning about that, I just grew to love her even more.

She hasn’t been well and her condition has deteriorated more in the past few years. My parents are getting old and I feel that one day I will have to go back to Taiwan to take care of them, and my sister. I still feel very uneasy about it since I left Taiwan when I was 3 years old, and I don’t have many happy memories of being there. I’m also not used to it being so congested, and humid (especially in summer). I’m still trying to conquer this obstacle I have of going back to Taiwan one day to be close to my family again. This is why I want to learn about online marketing, and be able to make money from it, because then I can earn an income without being limited by where I’m at, or by time zone differences.

I miss my sister so much. I love her so much.

I had pretty bad pain on the right side of my hip last night. It even woke me up in the middle of the night. I woke up this morning with it as well. I was feeling fine yesterday. I don’t know what could have triggered this right hip pain since last night?

I was once again feeling confused, helpless and hopeless. If I don’t know what caused this right hip pain, then how am I supposed to prevent it from happening again? It seems like my body has a mind of it’s own, and just acts out whenever it feels like it…

I committed myself to eft tapping for the entire time that I’m listening to the 2021 Tapping World Summit, so I decided to do some tapping for pain after practicing my gratitude exercise this morning. I felt a little better after doing the tapping. I then used my Deep Massager Pro to massage my lower back, hip and thigh muscles; focusing more on my right hip this time. I felt even better afterwards! I still feel that my right hip is out of alignment as I feel that my right leg is shorter than my left leg. I still need to get that adjusted, so that I don’t end up with really bad right hip pain again later on. The root of the problem (right hip being out of alignment) still needs to be addressed. However, the symptom (the right hip pain) has alleviated significantly.

I started listening to an episode from the Gut-Brain Solution – Episode 9 – Reclaiming your Center: Restorative Solutions for Better Moods, Sound Sleep & A Happy Gut whilst multi-tasking – doing a million other things at the same time (as usual) as well. I suddenly felt a tremendous sense of gratitude for my life, and for what I have in life.

There are millions of people out there that still has to physically go to work to earn a living. It’s great if they enjoy what they’re doing, but most of them are just doing it to make ends meet. I am still able to keep my work at home job at night, and get a lot of my own work done during that time as well. I don’t have to worry about putting food on the table. I don’t have to worry about making ends meet, or paying rent, etc. There are so many people in my life that I feel grateful for – my family, my friends, my health-care practitioners, and myself. I am so grateful that I am finally being able to begin to love myself and accept myself as I am.

I am so grateful that I am here inside my cozy, warm 69F townhouse journaling about how grateful I feel. I am so grateful that I have so many resources available to me in order to better myself – mind, body, spirit & financially. I am so grateful to the Universe for bringing love, health, happiness, luck, abundance and prosperity into my life. Thank you so much!!!

Your Song

Sir Elton John

It’s a little bit funny
This feeling inside
I’m not one of those who can easily hide
I don’t have much money, but boy if I did
I’d buy a big house where we both could live

If I was a sculptor, ha
But then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a traveling show
I know it’s not much, but it’s the best I can do
My gift is my song, and this one’s for you

And you can tell everybody
This is your song
It may be quite simple, but now that it’s done
I hope you don’t mind
I hope you don’t mind
That I put down in the words
How wonderful life is while you’re in the world

I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses, well they’ve got me quite cross
But the sun’s been quite kind
While I wrote this song
It’s for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting
But these things I do
You see I’ve forgotten, if they’re green or they’re blue
Anyway the thing is, what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I’ve ever seen

And you can tell everybody
This is the song
It may be quite simple, but now that it’s done
I hope you don’t mind
I hope you don’t mind
That I put down in the words
How wonderful life is while you’re in the world

I hope you don’t mind
I hope you don’t mind
That I put down in the words
How wonderful life is while you’re in the world