The red bean symbolizes love and faithfulness. In some parts of Asia, such as in Taiwan, men will often present red beans to their lover to show their commitment for a relationship. The red bean also symbolizes happiness. When a bride wears jewelry made from red beans on her wrist or neck, it means that she will lead a happy life. It is also a cultural belief and practice that if married couples put six red beans underneath each of their pillows, then their love will remain till eternityโฆ
The red bean is also a symbol of โremembranceโ or โmemorableโ, because the wife keeps on remembering the husband and waits for him to return everydayโฆ
Once again, Iโm unable to fall asleep. Iโve not been able to stop thinking about my sister since mom told me last weekend that my sister got transferred back to the critical care unit. I feel really sad for my sister, and I feel that I need to go back to Taiwan in the near future to be there for her.
However, at the same time, I also feel sad for myself. Ever since I told Mom last year that I will go back to Taiwan to take care of my sister, Iโve been feeling this huge weight on my shoulders.
I left Taiwan when I was 3 years old. Dad got transferred back to Taiwan (from the US) when I was 9 years old, and then he got transferred to South Africa when I was 14 years old. I also stayed in Taiwan for a year in 2009, so Iโve spent a total of 9 years of my life in Taiwan.
I canโt stand the weather in Taiwan, especially in summer. It is too hot and too humid. Taiwan is also very congested. If you like living in the city, then youโll like living in Taiwan. However, I prefer living in the countryside, and having lots of space between myself and my neighbors. I also prefer to live in a quiet environment.
Even though I feel sad for my sister, and I love her very much but at the same time, I also feel resentful towards her for making me have to uproot my life completely to live somewhere that I do not want to be. And then I feel guilty and shameful for feeling resentful towards her because she canโt help it, itโs not her fault. All of these mixed emotions torment me so much. I donโt know how Iโm supposed to feel. I donโt feel that I am allowed to honor how I feel, i.e. feeling resentful towards her.
I can still hold myself together during the day. But at night, I canโt stop thinking about these things.
Is it You who is my Twin Flame? Why do I feel such a magnetic pull towards you, even though you can be cruel at times???
I will miss youโฆ
Source(s): http://iamjewelgirl.blogspot.com/2012/04/red-bean.html
็ด ่ฑ (Red Bean)
~ ็่ฒ (Faye Wong)
้ๆฒๅฅฝๅฅฝ็ๆๅใ้ช่ฑ็ถปๆพ็ๆฐฃๅ
hai mei hao hao de gan shou ใxue hua zhan fang de qi hou
I havenโt properly felt the atmosphere in which snowflakes blosssom
ๆๅไธ่ตท้กซๆใๆๆดๆ็ฝใ็้บผๆฏๆบซๆ
wo men yi qi chan dou ใhui geng ming bai ใshen me shi wen rou
When we shiver together, we will further understand what tenderness is
้ๆฒ่ทไฝ ็ฝ่ๆใ่ตฐ้่่ช็ๆฒไธ
hai mei gen ni qian zhe shou ใzou guo huang wu de sha qiu
I havenโt held hands with you and walked past untended sand dunes
ๅฏ่ฝๅพๆญคไปฅๅพใๅญธๆ็ๆใๅคฉ้ทๅๅฐไน
ke neng cong ci yi hou ใxue hui zhen xi ใtian zhang he di jiu
Maybe from now on until later, we will learn to appreciate eternity
ๆๆๅใๆๆๅ (Chorus starts)
you shi hou ใyou shi hou
Sometimes, there are times,
ๆๆ็ธไฟกไธๅๆ็ก้ ญ
wo hui xiang xin yi qie you jin tou
when I believe that everything has an end
็ธ่้ข้ใ้ฝๆๆๅ
xiang ju li kai ใdou you shi hou
There are times for gatherings and partings;
ๆฒๆ็้บผๆๆฐธๅไธๆฝ
mei you shen me hui yong chui bu xiu
Nothing lasts forever
ๅฏๆฏๆใๆๆๅ
ke shi wo ใyou shi hou
But sometimes I โฆ
ๅฏง้ก้ธๆ็ๆไธๆพๆ
ning yuan xuan ze liu lian bu fang shou
Iโd rather be nostalgic than let go.
็ญๅฐ้ขจๆฏ้ฝ็้
deng dao feng jing dou kan tou
Until I have seen through all the scenery;
ไน่จฑไฝ ๆ้ชๆใ็็ดฐๆฐด้ทๆต (Chorus ends)
ye xu ni hui pei wo ใkan xi shui zhang liu
Perhaps you will accompany me to watch the flowing streamโฆ
้ๆฒ็บไฝ ๆ็ด ่ฑใ็ฌๆ็บ็ถฟ็ๅทๅฃ
hai mei wei ni ba hong dou ใao cheng chan mian de shang kou
I havenโt simmered the red bean for you, into wounds that linger
็ถๅพไธ่ตทๅไบซใๆๆดๆ็ฝใ็ธๆ็ๅๆ
ran hou yi qi fen xiang ใhui geng ming bai ใxiang si de ai chou
Then when we share it with each other, we will further understand the sorrow of missing each other!
้ๆฒๅฅฝๅฅฝ็ๆๅใ้่่ฆชๅป็ๆบซๆ
hai mei hao hao de gan shou ใxing zhe qin wen de wen rou
I havenโt properly felt the tenderness of kissing while awake
ๅฏ่ฝๅจๆๅทฆๅณใไฝ ๆ่ฟฝๆฑใๅญค็จ็่ช็ฑ
ke neng zai wo zuo you ใni cai zhui qiu ใgu du de zi you
Maybe itโs with me that youโre pursuing lonely freedom.