Red Bean

The red bean symbolizes love and faithfulness. In some parts of Asia, such as in Taiwan, men will often present red beans to their lover to show their commitment for a relationship. The red bean also symbolizes happiness. When a bride wears jewelry made from red beans on her wrist or neck, it means that she will lead a happy life. It is also a cultural belief and practice that if married couples put six red beans underneath each of their pillows, then their love will remain till eternity…

The red bean is also a symbol of ‘remembrance’ or ‘memorable’, because the wife keeps on remembering the husband and waits for him to return everyday…

紅豆 (Red Bean) ~ ηŽ‹θ² (Faye Wong)

Once again, I’m unable to fall asleep. I’ve not been able to stop thinking about my sister since mom told me last weekend that my sister got transferred back to the critical care unit. I feel really sad for my sister, and I feel that I need to go back to Taiwan in the near future to be there for her.

However, at the same time, I also feel sad for myself. Ever since I told Mom last year that I will go back to Taiwan to take care of my sister, I’ve been feeling this huge weight on my shoulders.

I left Taiwan when I was 3 years old. Dad got transferred back to Taiwan (from the US) when I was 9 years old, and then he got transferred to South Africa when I was 14 years old.Β  I also stayed in Taiwan for a year in 2009, so I’ve spent a total of 9 years of my life in Taiwan.

I can’t stand the weather in Taiwan, especially in summer. It is too hot and too humid. Taiwan is also very congested. If you like living in the city, then you’ll like living in Taiwan. However, I prefer living in the countryside, and having lots of space between myself and my neighbors. I also prefer to live in a quiet environment.

Even though I feel sad for my sister, and I love her very much but at the same time, I also feel resentful towards her for making me have to uproot my life completely to live somewhere that I do not want to be.  And then I feel guilty and shameful for feeling resentful towards her because she can’t help it, it’s not her fault. All of these mixed emotions torment me so much. I don’t know how I’m supposed to feel. I don’t feel that I am allowed to honor how I feel, i.e. feeling resentful towards her.

I can still hold myself together during the day.  But at night, I can’t stop thinking about these things.

Is it You who is my Twin Flame? Why do I feel such a magnetic pull towards you, even though you can be cruel at times???

I will miss you…

Source(s): http://iamjewelgirl.blogspot.com/2012/04/red-bean.html

紅豆 (Red Bean)

~ ηŽ‹θ² (Faye Wong)

ι‚„ζ²’ε₯½ε₯½ηš„ζ„Ÿε—γ€€ι›ͺθŠ±ηΆ»ζ”Ύηš„ζ°£ε€™

hai mei hao hao de gan shou γ€€xue hua zhan fang de qi hou

I haven’t properly felt the atmosphere in which snowflakes blosssom

ζˆ‘ε€‘δΈ€θ΅·ι‘«ζŠ–γ€€ζœƒζ›΄ζ˜Žη™½γ€€η”šιΊΌζ˜―ζΊ«ζŸ”

wo men yi qi chan dou γ€€hui geng ming bai γ€€shen me shi wen rou

When we shiver together, we will further understand what tenderness is

ι‚„ζ²’θ·Ÿδ½ η‰½θ‘—ζ‰‹γ€€θ΅°ιŽθ’θ•ͺηš„ζ²™δΈ˜

hai mei gen ni qian zhe shou γ€€zou guo huang wu de sha qiu

I haven’t held hands with you and walked past untended sand dunes

ε―θƒ½εΎžζ­€δ»₯εΎŒγ€€ε­Έζœƒηζƒœγ€€ε€©ι•·ε’Œεœ°δΉ…

ke neng cong ci yi hou γ€€xue hui zhen xi γ€€tian zhang he di jiu

Maybe from now on until later, we will learn to appreciate eternity

ζœ‰ζ™‚ε€™γ€€ζœ‰ζ™‚ε€™ (Chorus starts)

you shi hou γ€€you shi hou

Sometimes, there are times,

ζˆ‘ζœƒη›ΈδΏ‘δΈ€εˆ‡ζœ‰η›‘ι ­

wo hui xiang xin yi qie you jin tou

when I believe that everything has an end

η›Έθšι›’ι–‹γ€€ιƒ½ζœ‰ζ™‚ε€™

xiang ju li kai γ€€dou you shi hou

There are times for gatherings and partings;

ζ²’ζœ‰η”šιΊΌζœƒζ°Έεž‚δΈζœ½

mei you shen me hui yong chui bu xiu

Nothing lasts forever

ε―ζ˜―ζˆ‘γ€€ζœ‰ζ™‚ε€™

ke shi wo γ€€you shi hou

But sometimes I …

ε―§ι‘˜ιΈζ“‡η•™ζˆ€δΈζ”Ύζ‰‹

ning yuan xuan ze liu lian bu fang shou

I’d rather be nostalgic than let go.

η­‰εˆ°ι’¨ζ™―ιƒ½ηœ‹ι€

deng dao feng jing dou kan tou

Until I have seen through all the scenery;

δΉŸθ¨±δ½ ζœƒι™ͺζˆ‘γ€€ηœ‹η΄°ζ°΄ι•·ζ΅ (Chorus ends)

ye xu ni hui pei wo γ€€kan xi shui zhang liu

Perhaps you will accompany me to watch the flowing stream…

ι‚„ζ²’η‚Ίδ½ ζŠŠη΄…θ±†γ€€η†¬ζˆηΊηΆΏηš„ε‚·ε£

hai mei wei ni ba hong dou γ€€ao cheng chan mian de shang kou

I haven’t simmered the red bean for you, into wounds that linger

η„ΆεΎŒδΈ€θ΅·εˆ†δΊ«γ€€ζœƒζ›΄ζ˜Žη™½γ€€η›Έζ€ηš„ε“€ζ„

ran hou yi qi fen xiang γ€€hui geng ming bai γ€€xiang si de ai chou

Then when we share it with each other, we will further understand the sorrow of missing each other!

ι‚„ζ²’ε₯½ε₯½ηš„ζ„Ÿε—γ€€ι†’θ‘—θ¦ͺε»ηš„ζΊ«ζŸ”

hai mei hao hao de gan shou γ€€xing zhe qin wen de wen rou

I haven’t properly felt the tenderness of kissing while awake

ε―θƒ½εœ¨ζˆ‘ε·¦ε³γ€€δ½ ζ‰θΏ½ζ±‚γ€€ε­€η¨ηš„θ‡ͺη”±

ke neng zai wo zuo you γ€€ni cai zhui qiu γ€€gu du de zi you

Maybe it’s with me that you’re pursuing lonely freedom.