I breathe deeply and allow my breath to anchor me to the present moment.
Sunday (08/15/21):
🌺 I must have changed over 20 pillows since my concussion in Jan 2019. I still can not seem to find the right pillow to support my neck and shoulders.
🌺 I started having constant right shoulder pain after I took on a third (contact tracing) job last year. My condition deteriorated really fast. My right arm was constantly in pain with numbness and tingling sensations. My ongoing neck pain also started to get worse.
🌺 He has hurt me in the past ~ both intentionally and inadvertently, and I’m worried that he has anger issues and jealously issues. However, he has also helped me in ways that he probably doesn’t even realize himself.
🌺 When I told him about the fast deteriorating condition of my right arm (and neck pain), he told me that I need to look out for myself. He also did something which created a complete “Tower” moment for me and broke me down completely. It was painful, hurtful and devastating. It was also a huge turning point in my life, when I slowly started to realize that I do need to take care of myself and look out for my own best interests as well.
🌺 It still took me a while to turn around, and I’m still slowly trying to recover from all of my issues – both physically and psychologically. I do thank him for that. I wish he could have been more gentle in his approach towards me though. I wish it could have been a gentle nudge, bit by bit, instead of me feeling like I was being slapped in the face and stomped on the ground…
🌺 My right shoulder has been bothering me more again this week and got really bad yesterday. It felt a bit better after my adjustment yesterday. I think it could have been due to poor posture, some pain from the previous adjustment (I felt some pain in my right acromioclavicular joint right after the shoulder adjustment last time), and from my 20th (or is it the 21st now?) pillow.
🌺 I’m going to be more aware of my posture, do my neck retraction exercises more often, and I guess I’m gonna have to try out another pillow now…
Monday (08/16/21):
I had really bad right shoulder pain for the entire night last night. I feel like I have a nerve impingement. Gonna have to sort it out today.
Tuesday (08/17/21):
🍀 I found my cellphone yesterday evening! It fell onto the other side of my car. I am so blessed! Thank you Universe! Woohoo! 😆
🍀 My entire right arm is still in pain, but a bit better now after my chiropractic adjustment yesterday. We agreed that if it doesn’t get better after 3 weeks, then I’ll have to make an appointment to see an orthopedic surgeon for further evaluation. 😰
🍀I’m seeing my PT this afternoon, gonna ask him to please work on that region. I better start watching my posture even more carefully now, and beware of anything that’s causing it pain.
🍀 I asked my husband to please help me get my executive chair from our storage unit, as the chairs that came furnished for our townhouse are not of a comfortable height for the table. I’m thinking that this may be a main reason for my right arm pain. I also just remembered last night that I switched to a new pillow on Sunday night, which may be another reason that I had really bad pain in my right arm for the entire night on Sunday.
Wednesday (08/18/21):
🍁 My right shoulder feels better now after my PT session yesterday. My PT worked on my pectoralis m., my scalene m., some muscles on my scapular region and a really tight knot on the right side of my neck (it was so tight it actually felt like a piece of bone).
🍁 My PT showed me the “Doorway pectoral stretch” and said that I can do that instead of the corner stretch if that’s hurting my right shoulder too much right now. He said to hold for 30 seconds, and I asked him how many times a day do I have to do this? He said “three”. I was shocked! I actually asked him, “Really”? I was expecting some gruesome schedule and was so happy when he said “Yes”. 😃
🍁 My husband kindly brought home my executive chair yesterday from our storage unit. It’s better now that I can adjust the height so that I’m not pressing against my wrist & forearms when typing, but I still can’t seem to find the “perfect” height. I’m going to continue to adjust accordingly and see if it helps with my right shoulder & arm pain.
I did not sleep well last night. 🥱 I woke up early this morning and then my neighbor was being noisy again. I suddenly realized that I have not been tapping for a few weeks now so did some tapping. I’m going to start tapping every day again now. I think it was helpful to help calm my nerves.
Friday (08/20/21):
🌺 Throat (5th) Chakra ~ Communication
🌺 I communicate openly and honestly to express my thoughts and feelings clearly.
🌺 I share my inner knowledge freely with integrity and without fear.
Saturday (08/21/21):
I’m going to start placing my focus on how I’m feeling.
Are you hungry? Ok, let’s eat something healthy and delicious.
Are you full? Ok, let’s stop eating now.
Are you tired? Ok, let’s rest for a while.
Are you feeling antsy? Ok, let’s move around a bit.
Are you feeling sad? Why? What are you feeling sad about?
Are you feeling angry? Why? What are you feeling angry about?
Are you in pain? Where are you feeling the pain? Can you remember when it started? Can you remember what caused it? Can you associate it with an emotional event?
