I come from the loving space of my heart, and I know that love opens all doors.
I am willing to release the feeling of being unworthy. I am now becoming all that I am supposed to be.
Wednesday (10/05/22):
I am finding it more and more difficult to focus these days due to all the things that are going on in my life. I am also worried that I might start suffering from Seasonal Affective Depression again once the days get shorter and the nights longer.
I am giving myself permission to NOT push myself right now. My main focus is to get the divorce process going, clear out all my stuff, and figure out my next step in life once this is completed.
If I want to bawl my eyes out, it’s okay. If I want to swear and feel the anger & hurt while going through this divorce process, it’s okay. I don’t have to be perfect. I don’t have to always be the sweetest person on this earth. I am just human. I am imperfect. I can act out if I want to. I allow myself to feel all the emotions I am going through with this divorce process.
I Will Not Numb My Feelings, I Will Feel What I Feel And Slowly Process It Over Time, However Long It May Take.
Monday (10/24/22):
I started listening to a 7-Week program on Codependency Recovery and am learning a lot from it.
I no longer want to be a people pleaser or a perfectionist.
I want to just be myself and find someone that can accept me as I am, and I, the same for him. This is once we have both passed our dealbreakers criteria.
I am no longer going to work my ass off to seek approval or to be loved. I am lovable, just as I am.
If Someone Does Not Treat Me Right, Then Dump Them, And Block Them!
I accidentally sent out an email this morning with a grammar mistake. In the past, I’d be brooding over it for a long time. Now, I just figure, you what? My English is a lot better than at least 80% of people who were born in an English-speaking country. So, even if I make a mistake now and then, it’s still almost perfect!
This is my new life! I am accepting myself as I am. My life should be easy. My relationships should be easy. I will no longer accept relationships that suck my life force and drain my energy. If it’s too hard, then it’s not meant to be.
My Motto for this week is: My Life Is Easy. My Relationships Are Easy!
Thursday (10/27/22):
Powerball is at its second-highest payout in history now @ $800M. My friend and are each going to put in $50 to buy 50 tickets and split the winnings in half. Here’s to us winning the Jackpot! Woohoo! 😝🤞
