Lately, I’ve been noticing a shift in my mindset regarding my divorce. I have been feeling like a bird trapped inside a cage for many years now. After my ex-husband asked for a divorce in December last year, I slowly started to feel that the lock to my cage door has finally been removed. However, even though I feel miserable being trapped, but I also feel a sense of familiarity inside my little cage. It’s my Home, after all…
For the past few months, I’ve been opening the cage door and going outside to play for a while. But then before the sun sets, I’ll fly back into my cage and close the door behind me again… Lately, I’ve been treading farther and farther to other places to play, but I still come back to my cage before the end of each day and close the door behind me. This is what I have been familiar with, for the past 14 years. As trapped as it makes me feel, at the same time, I feel safe…
However, I’ve been starting to have a paradigm shift recently. Yes, it’s a wild world out there, filled with a lot of dangers, but at the same time, a lot of fun adventures. Maybe I’ll be ok on my own out there? It’s nice to have companionship. However, if it’s not with the right person, and we’re not compatible, then it’s actually better to just be on my own.
When he asked for the divorce, after getting caught for secretly drinking again for the past year (I wasn’t aware of the other woman, and the monies that he secretly withdrew from our bank accounts until later on), he also mentioned that it’s because we’re too different. He doesn’t think that we’ll be able to change for one another and he doesn’t want us to continue being unhappy for the rest of our lives. We both tried, but I think after 14 years, it is reasonable to say that what he has said is true. ..
My ex-husband has done many hurtful things to me, especially in the past year. However, thankfully, he still cared enough to make sure that I will be taken care of once our divorce is final so that I’ll be okay on my own. It’s a wild world and there are a lot of bad out there, but I am slowly starting to feel that I will be okay being on my own. Perhaps, I can make a lot of nice friends out there? 🌹
It’s a Wild World
~ Cat Stevens
La la la
La la la
La la la
Now that I’ve lost everything to you
You say you want to start something new
And it’s breaking my heart you’re leaving
Baby I’m greaving
But if you want to leave take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
But then a lot of nice things turn bad out there
Oh baby baby it’s a wild world
It’s hard to get by just upon a smile
Oh baby baby it’s a wild world
I’ll always remember you like a child girl
You know I’ve seen a lot of what the world can do
And it’s breaking my heart in two
‘Cause I never want to see you sad girl
Don’t be a bad girl
But if you want leave take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
But just remember there’s a lot of bad everywhere
Oh baby baby it’s a wild world
It’s hard to get by just upon a smile
Oh baby baby it’s a wild world
And I’ll always remember you like a child girl yeah
La la la
La la la
Baby I love you, but if you want to leave take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
But just remember there’s a lot of bad everywhere
Oh baby baby it’s a wild world
It’s hard to get by just just upon a smile
Yeah yeah yeah
Oh baby baby it’s a wild world
And I’ll always remember you like a child girl oh yeah
Oh baby baby it’s a wild world
It’s hard to get by just upon a smile
Yeah
Oh baby baby it’s a wild world
And I’ll always remember you like a child girl